tag:dreamwidth.org,2011-12-16:1138022 ambelies_writes ambelies_writes 2011-12-18T03:23:13Z tag:dreamwidth.org,2011-12-16:1138022:772 2011-12-18T03:23:13Z 2011-12-18T03:23:13Z cold public 0 Glass<br />I am<br />Glass<br />Shattered <br />Broken<br />Brittle<br />Glass<br />Sharp<br />Sparkling<br />Dangerous<br />Cutting<br />Glass<br />Brilliant<br />Shining<br />Glass<br />I<br />Glass<br />I am<br />Glass<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=ambelies_writes&ditemid=772" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments tag:dreamwidth.org,2011-12-16:1138022:690 2011-12-18T03:19:48Z 2011-12-18T03:19:48Z thoughtful public 0 This is what it feels like<br />to feel as if my skin is stretched<br />too tight over my sharpened bones<br />pieces of my soul shriveling and drying<br />flaking away, <br />People wanting to "fix" me<br />like i'm some broken toy laying<br />boneless on the ground with my strings<br />cut and lifeless<br /><br />This is what it feels like<br />To know that what I feel<br />May not be rational, <br />Those thoughts, aren't my own<br />and there is no reason for me<br />to sit here, crying<br />Except that today is friday<br />and that the sun is not shining<br />and rain is dripping from the eaves<br /><br />This is what it feels like<br />To look outside myself and see<br />that i am not like everyone else<br />I wear a mask i carry a wall<br />to keep others out<br />and myself in<br />I'm almost numb to it all<br />or at least that's what I tell <br />Myself and everyone else<br /><br />This is what it feels like<br />To gather myself together<br />and shove the tears back in<br />to taste the salt and the bitter<br />and walk with a smile touching my lips<br />to make sure noone else sees<br />or is uncomfortable around me<br />I want so badly to be normal<br />I want to be able to smile for real<br /><br />This is what it feels like<br />at least for now.<br />possibly I will feel differently <br />tomorrow or the next day<br />because every day is different<br />but this is how it feels for me now<br />perhaps tomorrow<br />or the next day<br />I will feel something else<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=ambelies_writes&ditemid=690" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments tag:dreamwidth.org,2011-12-16:1138022:377 2011-12-16T21:05:57Z 2011-12-16T21:05:57Z chipper public 0 Hi, this is my first entry, this is going to be my writing journal, and I will eventually put stories, finished and unfinished here, as well as poetry.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=ambelies_writes&ditemid=377" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments